Weekend Recap

Thursday
I got of work and was happy because I didn't have to go back to work until Sunday night. Marlan picked me up and wasn't talking to me for whatever reason he made up in his head. I got a little sleep but had to be up for the most part with the kids while Marlan was at work and his little brother in school.
I had my CPR class that I had to do for my program I will be taking this month. they said it would be from 6pm - 10pm, but we got out around 8pm which was a good thing. I got to go home and spend some time with the kids and make a little something to eat. We went to bed pretty early today because Marlan had to work ... By the end of the night he was talking to me a little lol

Friday
I had to drop Marlan of at work so I could have the car because Malan had her 2 year old doctors appointment. I was pretty tired though still but it was cool. Everything went well at the doctors and Malan is growing and is healthy all over. Malan now weighs 31 pound 10 oz, 36 inches long, and her head circumference is 48cm. Malan also had to get her hemoglobin level checked which came back good. Malan was pretty mad because she was due to get a shot, she had her 2nd hep A and cried for like 2 seconds. After that she was fine. On the ride home she went to sleep in the car (I don't know what it is but her and the baby always go to sleep after getting their shots.
Today I also got some cleaning done, A LOT. I deep cleaned our whole apartment which took me all day. I would have finished a lot earlier but with two children who need constant attention it was pretty hard and I would take breaks because I had to do other things. I was happy by the end of the night because I knew I could relax all day tomorrow and not worry about cleaning up to much.

Saturday
Today seemed like it went by rather quickly. I hung out with Marlan and the kids. Marlan wanted to spend some time with me and watch "Hot Tub Time Machine" before he went out later on. As much as I talked sh*t about not wanting to watch the DVD because I have seen it so many times, I still did and I enjoyed it lol. Today I also sewed Malan a skirt, which turned out really good for my first attempt. With the rest of the material I will be making me a dress. All I really have to do is fit the dress to my size because I ended up buying the original dress from goodwill because I liked the print on the fabric and used the bottom part to make Malans skirt. Marlan said that's what me and her can wear when we all take family pictured for baby Marlans 6 months. That would be nice because its something I made. Also today baby Marlan pulled himself up using the couch, me and Marlan was so shocked and he was just standig there laughing. This little boy is growing up so quick and continues to amaze us everyday.

Sunday
HAPPY MOTHERS DAY!!! Today was a "normal" day, nothing special or different. Well I cant say nothing special because everyday I spend with my children is special :)
Marlan was sick (Self inflicted) which added to my emotional state I was already in and how mad I was at him. I spent time with Malan and baby Marlan and ended up finishing little Nates jacket (Marlans little brother). It turned out really nice but I had to change the studs because when I bleached it, like a fool I left studs on there and they changed color so I had to take them off and put new ones on. After I finished that I ended up laying down to sleep which was around 5pm and by the time I woke up it was almost 9pm (when I had to be getting up foo work).

Overall the weekend was nice. Filled with so many mixed emotions ...

4-18-13 Baby Noah

On 04/18/2013 my sister Modinat gave birth to a beautiful baby boy Noah. He was born at 12:12pm and weighed 5 pounds. I wish I could have been there with my sister but unfortunately she lives in England.


There is so much I wish I could have told her and so many things I did tell her and wish she had listened. Now shes in a situation where she is forced to be a single mother because the choices she made and the "man" she laid with. It hurts me that my sister is going through the things she has been through in these months alone. Out of 3 babies she ended up with one. I cant even come close to imagine how that makes her feel. I wish I could have been there for her during her whole pregnancy and even before. I pray that she finds the strength and growth to be the best parent she can be. As a big sister I would have never in a million years wanted my sister to be in the situation shes in. Don't get me wrong shes not alone because she has family members that may help her. I really pray as time goes on she saves and gets her own place where she can raise her son and that she can truly be happy and give him the childhood he deserves and also herself a wonderful experience with becoming a mother. I wish I could hold my nephew, kiss him and tell him how strong of a person his mother is. There's so much I could say but a lot of times I hold my tongue, my little sister means a lot to me and like I said to her go through what shes went through and knowing I could have potentially stopped it kills me everyday. I just pray and wish the best for her and baby Noah and make sure she makes the best decisions for the both of them not for others around her.
Thank you for blessing me with a nephew.

Weekend Recap

This weekend was pretty chilled and relaxed.
1. Me, Malan and baby Marlan camped out in the living room in Malans new tent/ball pit she got for her birthday. I downloaded a movie for her and cut up some cheese and a pear for us (which ended up being for the most part all hers lol). It was so nice to see how happy and excited she was because this was something new to her. Baby Marlan ended up falling asleep and shortly after that I did the same. I woke back up around maybe 12am and Malan was still up watching TV so I ended up turning the TV off and putting her in bed, then me and baby Marlan did the same.
2. We took Malan out to eat at the Indian buffet where we live. She was so happy she had her own big girl plate and she really enjoyed the food. Malan even snapped some pictures of us all :)

We was all stuffed after that buffet so we went home to call it a night.
3. I watched the last episode of Spartacus, and yes I was in tears. I kind of knew it was going to end the way it did but it was still super upsetting. I'm STILL waiting on Marlan to catch up on the last two episodes so we can talk about it.
4. I was supposed to have my sewing 102 class, I even called up there to make sure it was still on and they told me yes so I went up there brought my material and things, waited for another 20 minutes, then went to see what was going on. They ended up telling me the class was cancelled, I then had to wait another 30 minutes just to get my refund because they've a new system they still don't know how to work it yet.

Happy 2nd Birthday Malan

I remember when I first had you, held you in my arms, kissed you, cried for you, cried with you. That day in the hospital, I didn't know where life would take me or where I would even be, but I knew one thing for sure, I had to be strong for you and give you all the love I had. I knew you needed me just as much as I needed you. It was love at first sight and from that day I would love you more and more

Then 4/10/12 came and you turned 1, so much happened in that year, so many happy memories, so many memories I would like to forget. So much learning as a mother and growing as a woman. You helped me through a lot and seeing your face everyday made me stronger and made me want to be a better person. You enjoyed your birthday, me and daddy gave you a party in Chicago with your family a few days before your birthday, then on your actual birthday we took you to the movies and out to eat (ohh how you love to eat) After that we took you and your cousins to chuck e cheese, you loved the pizza there, not the games so much

Then today came and you turned 2, oh where did the time go. A few times today I had to catch myself holding back tears. My baby, isn't such a baby anymore, you need me less and less now. Its like I find it hard to accept your not such a baby anymore, your growing up, talking more, running around, playing and laughing more. You do things for yourself now and when you need me or daddy, you let us know. I love when you lay beside me, kiss my check and say "wove you" (love you), it warms my heart. I love laying down and trying to nap before work and you come in the room wanting to lay down with me. My baby, not such a baby no more
Today we waited until daddy was of work so you could open your gifts. When he came home you sat impatiently waiting, you even was trying to chew on the boxes to get them open while daddy took of his work clothes and put on his "house clothes". Finally you got to open your gifts and was so happy in doing so. It was so nice watching you play in your ball pit with your uncle Nate. I cant wait for this weekend so we can camp out in the living room, enjoy some food and movies. Seeing you smile so much today and be so happy makes everything worth it.
Me and daddy love you so very much and want nothing but the best for you. You baby brother loves you also. We all do, you will always be my baby no matter how big you get

Picture Me: March Edition

Weekend Recap: Chicago Trip

Thursday
I was looking through my phone and seen these of baby Marlan and his daddy, taken today. I don't know where I was at.
After Marlan got of work we went drove to Chicago, I barely slept that day either and I was the one who ended up driving because I knew either way if I drove or not I still wouldn't go to sleep regardless how sleepy I was. As usual though when me and Marlan get to talking I wake right up. It was nice going down there because his mum or the rest of his family haven't saw Malan in months and they have never seen baby Marlan. The family where excited to see the baby and was saying how big he is. We got there pretty late so we didn't go out or anything.
First time Marlans mum seen baby Marlan ... Malan and her chunky face :)Baby Marlan and his cousin KJ sleepning
Friday
Marlans cousin Kashay was over his mums house with her baby Kj who is 2 weeks older than baby Marlan. That was the first time we seen him since he was born and the first time she also saw baby Marlan. Marlan went outside to run a few errands and I sat talking to Kashay and the family. We laughed at the kids playing and getting to be around each other. Malan was acting so funny with everyone, she didn't want no one to pick her up or anything. Its like she was literally glued to me, anywhere I went she was right beside me. Everyone was saying how much of a happy baby that baby Marlan is. All he was doing was laughing and smiling, oh and lets not forget blowing spit bubbles.
Malan and her little cousin KJ(Kashays baby) Kashay curled my hair :)
We was supposed to go to the mall to see if we could pick up the kids some things for summer and also to see what type of things they had there, so Kashay curled my hair for me and it looked super cute. I did feel like I was sitting there forever and would say "people really sit here this long getting there hair done". Kashay is really good with doing hair though, all different types and all different styles (it doesn't even have to be yours lol)
Anywhoo I got dressed and got the kids dressed, by the time I knew it time was passing and passing. We left the house and it was probably around 6pm, from Marlans mums we went to his cousins house so she could see the kids and we could say hay. We ended up staying there for a while and didn't even end up going to the mall. We went back to his mums and I stayed up talking to Kashay and playing with the kids (long story short)
Marlan said my hair looks nice like that :)

Saturday
We went to the mall today, Marlan wanted to get the kids a couple pairs of shoes but they barley had any in Malans size and for the baby he just got him some for when he starts walking/ his feet get bigger(just so he has them). We came back to his mums house and got something to eat seeing as we were starving.
Malans little auntie and her cousin were decorating eggs for Easter, Malan didn't want to get involved though. Instead she sat down and ate then started back being right by my side. It would have been nice for her to decorate the eggs though but like I said "she is funny acting". Although basically all weekend she was playing and talking to Marlans dog. Malan would be sitting down laughing, rubbing and playing with the dog. It was so cute.
My baby had a long day!
Malan and her cousin Jakiah
Sunday
HAPPY EASTER EVERYONE Well today we drove back home from Chicago, the drive seemed pretty quick. We stopped at Walmart before we went home though so I could get Malan some type of mini Easter eggs. When we got home I didn't even bother putting away the clothes or anything for that matter. I pumped milk for the baby, took a shower then laid down for an hour or less before having to get right back up for work.

I swear this whole weekend I felt like I barley slept and it went super fast. Although it seemed to be a lot of "bs" going on, I still managed to enjoy my weekend with my little family and it was nice seeing faces I haven't seen in a while, also new additions to Marlans family ... Back to work!

New Arrival

My boyfriends sister gave birth to a baby boy today at 6:30pm. He is premature and weighs 2 pounds. He was ready to make his appearance into this world. I will continue to pray for his growth and strength as the days go by.
Welcome into the world baby Marquell Jontell Dixon and also welcome to motherhood Markisha. This is such a blessing

Weekend Recap

1. We went to the mall and got the kids some shoes and clothes 2. Malans friends came over and we made a egg and cheese salad, we also made some rice crispy cakes. They had so much fun making everything and even better eating them. 3. Malan decided to give herself a makeover 4. Japan got her hair done (not like it doesn't have to get done every other day) 5. Baby Marlan is getting better at holding his bottle  6. Caught up on Spartacus and cried.
P.s I'm trying out the new blogger app on android. Its pretty convenient if you want to post while your not around a computer :)

Lets Go Back... Very Long Post

This is so long overdue, I still wanted to get it done though. After this I can finally keep up month to month.

The Beginning - November
My due date was 11/11/12, but you had other plans. You didn't want to come so they scheduled me for an induction on 11/19/12 at 7:15am. Me and your daddy left for the hospital, we checked in then went to our room. When we got settled in they put me on a drip for the GBS that I had and boy did that sting. The nurse was nice enough to help ease the pain by adding another drip to it wouldn't sting as much.
The doctor came in the room at 9:15am and I was 4cm dilated, 50% effaced and -2. The doctor said she would be back in later on to break my water because she wanted to give the penicillin time to kick in. The doctor came back at 10:40am and broke my water, I was still dilated 4cm, nothing changed. Again I was checked at 12:35pm and I was now 5cm dilated. At 4:25pm I was 7cm dilated and still -2. Mind you during this time the contractions were a lot stronger and more consistent. I sat on the ball for a while, walked around the room, got in the tub then went to lay back down. I was just trying to do anything I could to really hurry this natural labor on. I think I was a little in denial because with Malan it was quick and easy so I thought it would be the same again - very wrong.

Born on 11/19/12 at 7:24pm, weighing 8 pounds 12 ounces, length 19 3/4 inchesYour very first "bath". You really liked it, you were so relaxed and quietLooking just like Malan when she was born and laying on daddyGetting big alreadyBaby Marlans belly button fell of on 11/28/12
December
Baby Marlan had his 2 week check up on 12/3/12, he weighed 9 pounds 7 ounces, he was 20 1/4 inches and his head circumference was 36.2cmMalan used her pot for the first time on 12/26/12, she was a little embarrassed because she pooped but we were so excitedJanuary 2013
Malan had her first dentist appointment on 1/10/13. The dentist were surprised how well she did, Malan was very excited she got a new tooth brush and a sticker :) Baby Marlan had his 2 month check up on 1/21/13, he was 13 pounds 12 ounces. His height was 23 inches and his head circumference was 40.2cmBaby Marlan ended up in hospital with RSV on 1/25/13, you stayed in there overnight so they could check your breathing. We were blessed to go home the next day and from there you only got betterFebruary
Baby Marlan got his ears pierced on 2/8/13 he cried a little but after he was just fine and he looked so cute (not like he didn't before)I made Malan a tutu, it wasn't quiet finished yet though