Ten Months

02/10/12
The months really are going by so fast, I can't believe my baby is ten months already. In two months she will be turning one. It's so crazy to me how time really does fly, I keep looking back like are you serious! Malan is taking a lot more steps now and mainly likes to stand instead of crawling, she walks more by holding onto things. Today we went to see if we could get her some "hard bottom" shoes, because we thought that would help her better keep her balance but the man told us soft bottoms would do the trick also. We left with no shoes (for Malan), seeing as she has more than enough shoes, as well as one pair of hard bottoms her auntie brought her for Christmas but their still to big. Her dad did get some more "hooping shoes" which he had to order from he store seeing as they didn't have his size.

We went to the gym (me, Marlan and Malan). Malan really enjoyed herself because there was like five other children she could play with. The woman at the gym daycare put her in a walker and she said she liked it very much after being in there for 10 minutes. Malans never had a walker because there is nowhere for her to really walk in out apt.
Her hairs growing and her "bald spot" in the back is clearing away, she has 4 teeth. Malan loves to dance, she holds on to your hand to stand up then lets go and bounces up and down swinging her arms around until she falls down, even then she sits on the floor dancing. Malan loves commercials that have some type of music or somebody singing in them, she stops still or looks at the TV until it goes off. Right now I think her best one is one with a big yelling "weee weee weee", I do that to Malan and she has her own version of it lol.
Also she has this thing where she sticks out her tounge and moves it lol, as well as when you ask her for a kiss she leans in towards you and kisses you on the lips(well me and her dad). It is so cute!!!

Today was her last day on breast milk, were going to try her on 2% milk now but water it down with baby water and see how she likes it. I was trying to go up till she was around one to stop breastfeeding but my milk supply has gotten alot lower, I'm glad I breastfed thou.
Malans enjoying all the new foods shes been tasting and still wants any and everything she sees me and her dad eat, which isn't always possible.
My baby has gotten so big and I kinda hate it, shes taking steps, has teeth and is just everywhere in the house.
I love her so much and so does her dad. We have and continue to enjoy every second with Malan!
MUMMY and DADDY LOVES YOU MALAN!

Weekend Recap

02/06/12
Well I hope everyone had a nice weekend.
Thursday I got to wake up beside Malan and her father, although I was the one getting up when Malan woke up excited and jumping on the bed. I was looking forward to today, because I had a "chill day" planned for me, Marlan and Malan later that night. Marlan would go to the gym and as he was on his way home, I would run him a bath seeing as his body hurt so he could relax while I cooked. When he finished bathing, and the food was done, we would all eat then lay in bed and watch some movies till we fell asleep. As well as laugh and have some conversations. The day obviously didn't go like that. I was running Marlan a bath, he came home and said he was going down stairs for a while and I can do it when he comes back upstairs. Also I couldn't cook because he wasn't quiet hungry yet, due to him drinking his shake. Well eventually he came back upstairs and it was around 10pm, Malan was already in bed asleep. I was so upset I just cry ed while I talked to him and explained all I wanted was to have a nice family night together, seeing as I'm always working or tired. I was so looking forward to spending time with my family, but once again I was let down and I don't think he really understood where I was coming from. Eventually he ended up saying I could still cook if I wanted to and we can watch a movie. I skipped cooking seeing as it was late and we layed on the couch watching a movie. I was happy I got to do that although what I planned I would of enjoyed alot more. I know some time is better than no time!
Friday, Marlan went to Iowa City and me and Malan stayed home. We was in bed most of that day and was being so lazy. We spent maybe a hour or so in the living room and that's only because I was cooking and Malan was in her playpen.
Saturday, Marlan was still in Iowa City and me and Malan was home. In the morning I put her in the bath and put her pj's on (I know, it's morning time but I know where just relaxing at home). After that she fell right to sleep, so I got in the shower then layed down with her. I watched tv for a while then she finally woke up. We layed in bed watching different movies until our ride came so we could go to the library real quick to fax something of. We came back home and skyped my cousin in England for a while, I made some Spaghetti, we ate, then layed back in bed and went to sleep after a while.

Sunday, Marlan came home pretty early compared to when he usually comes. Again he went downstairs and stayed down there a while with his cousin. Me being me obviously said something, like come on now, he's been gone the whole weekend and I just want to spend SOME time with him and Malan together. He finally came upstairs and we layed down and watched a movie. I was supposed to take a nap, but that didn't happen. We were flicking channels from the super bowl to titanic. By the time I knew it I had to leave the house to go to work :(
Overall my weekend was pretty good, I know I got to spend all my time with my baby Malan and at least some time with her daddy

Life

02/01/12
I've been slacking on my blog a little.
I'm just having one of those nights at work, when I've got nothing to do but sit here and think about a whole bunch of things. Like I feel over worked and over tired. I work from Sunday-Wednesday from 10pm-8am, then I go to the gym till around 10:30am. When I'm done I go home and my daughter usually wakes up, I leave her dad to sleep then put her in the tub and wash her up. After that, I get in the shower myself. By the time I'm in my pj's and my daughters dressed her dad sometimes wakes up. He makes her breakfast and I eat something also. I straighten up the apartment if theres anything that need cleaned a little. By then its usually the afternoon time. I then try to sleep and may go to sleep till around 1pm. I have to wake up around 4pm to get Malan because her dad is about to go to the gym. That means I have around 4 - 5 hours sleep. I then get up with Malan, play with her a little and also try get a nap in somewhere. I usually can get a nap for about 1 hour or so if I'm lucky. Malans dad comes back from the gym and sometimes comes upstairs to get Malan or he will go downstairs and hang out for a while. By the time I know it I'm leaving out the door for yet another night at work. I do this 4 days out the week, which may not seem like alot to people but to me it's really starting to get a little overwhelming. I just feel like I barely sleep, I get around maybe 6 hours sleep a day if I'm lucky. I don't know what to do anymore like I really wish I could find another job where I will be guaranteed the same hours and pay, if not more. I wish I could work at a normal time during the dat instead of over night, that way I know I can defiantly get some sleep and won't be over tired. It's like I'm starting to get so annoyed because with the lack of sleep, not having no social life, spending less time with my family and all the other crap I have going through my head is beginning to get to much for me! I miss being younger when I could get up when I wanted, didn't have to worry about bills, I was free to do anything I basically wanted. Now I'm 20 years old with a near 10 month old daughter, with my first job, anD apartment with Malans father, no friends, no social life, no nothing.
Days I just feel like I'm going to explode, like this seriously can't be my life!
It can't all be bad though, I've got my beautiful daughter and her amazing father in my life. Where working together but I guess its just sacrifices that have to be made!